Sakura-con

I have been holding off writing this journal. I wasn't sure what I was going to be doing. 

As of right now I plan on attending Sakura-con and I will be at table 214.

My brother is coming to help me and while I may not be at my table at all times there will be someone there. Due to well, everything my stock is limited. I didn't actually restock items for the convention like I would normally. Please do come by though if you want to check out stuff. Also, unlike previous years I will not be taking at convention commissions. I just cannot this year. I do not know how I will feel in the evenings and I do not want to promise things to be delivered in a timely manor when they very well might not be.

I know many people are going to say something like "Why are you even going?" or "Take care of yourself first." and I know you all mean well but this is for me. I need something to do with myself. I need something to distract myself with. I need something. I am also going because I can just hear Mike telling me to go with some logical reason like "You know you need the money." and right now that is more true than ever. I am going as a distraction, as something I would normally do, I as a way to give myself something to do. I have made a few new things for the con. Things I felt like making, but not what I would normally do for Sakura-con. One of the new things is really freaking awesome and making it was rather therapeutic. I spent over 12 hours just working on it non-stop. It was nice. I could loose myself in it and not think. Most of my other items I am so familiar with I can still think while I make them, which has made them hard to work on. 

I will likely not be as peppy as normal but please do not keep that from coming by and saying hi. There are a few guidelines I am going to ask everyone who stops by to keep to.

DO NOT mention the loss of my husband. I can keep myself together if I do not think about it too much. 

DO NOT give me your condolences in person. Please, keep them here online. I can read them in private and in my own time. I do appreciate them.

DO NOT ask or try to give me a hug, squeeze my hands, or other such things. Again, I appreciate the thought but I just cannot right now. 

DO talk about anime, games, manga, nerdy things. I love conversing with others about the stuff we love. 

DO ask about the things on my table, try things on, play with plushies.

DO act like this is just another con with things completely normal for myself. I will be doing that and I will appreciate it if anyone who stops by does the same. 

Thank you all and I look forward to seeing the handful of you that are also going to be at Sakura-con