I had intended to write about how great Sakura-con was soon after the con but around Sunday afternoon I started feel rather down and that mood kind of stuck on me for well over the next week. I went a little bit insane but well, I am told that is normal. Apparently everything you can think of is normal in grief. Really, I think we just understand it so little that no one can say how anyone will respond. It has taken me most of this week to get out of that funk. I find myself starting to realize just how real everything is. It is hard to explain but I find the sheer realness of everything unbearable. It just reminds me that this is how the world is now and Mike isn't coming home. Most days I still find myself waiting for him to come home. I am scared of the day I am no longer waiting because then I will really have accepted that this is how the world is and I really do not want to. (If you are a newer watcher or have not read my recent journal posts and are rather confused please read this one: Tragedy
Ah, I had meant to start this of on a more positive note. Sorry about that. Anywho, Sakura-con was fun. I know Sunday I was a tad out of it. Part of it was me in my own head and part of it was just being tired from the con. I want to thank everyone who stoppedy by and an extra thanks to everyone who bought something. You all made it so I could pay my taxes this year. Seriously, I would have been in so much trouble if it wasn't for you all. I did have fun talking to you all. Also, a big thanks to the Everfree NW staff I met at the con, you guys are awesome!
I have been thinking about reopening my shop soon. First I need to figure out how I am going to ship things though....Without Mike to drop off my packages and no car of my own I need to figure that out. Once I do I will look into reopening. When I do reopen I plan to only take a limited number of orders before I close my shop again. After having gone through a week of being unable to do anything I do not want to take on too many orders. The time to delivery will also be longer for the foreseeable future. It was 1-2 weeks but it will be changed to 6-8 weeks. I do not expect orders will take me this long but I do not know what will happen. I am as much of a mystery to myself as others right now.
I think that is all the news I have right now. Feel free to ask any questions about my shop or such if you have them. I will do my best to answer.